Melancholy
I don’t really know when that feeling rears its “unattractive” head (can’t say its ugly head, as from time to time I do enjoy it, weird huh?). Vangelis is perfect, slow and easy, their ballads accompanying you along your thoughts. Thoughts that you let wander at their own leisure. You have to deal with it, even though it often means a fair share of dark shadows revolving around your neurons.
Moreover, I’ve read somewhere it may be related to depression but currently I don’t feel depressed. Out of place, yes, yet I haven’t found any place which could prevent me from having that kind of sentiment. It’s a fleeting moment, a minute everything is normal and the next someone has turned off or dimmed the lights. I know Cancers (the zodiacal sign not the illness) are prone to moodiness and I suppose that I just one of the many in that situation. I don’t believe much in Astrology, but parts of what it mentions are troubling. Now, switching to “28 Days Later” soundtrack.
Despite it, I’m fortunate, no broken heart, and no troubled relationship. Just a troubled life I guess. And I’m not willing to bring anyone into this for now. Besides, it’s only troubled on the basis of my previous choices and I’m quite sure it would not have been that easier had I taken different ways. Mine is tortuous, true but so is everyone else’s. Basically I’ve intended it like this. Somewhat, it is not the most straightforward path but it definitely will offer me a happier outcome. One I could not have reached without a few hardships along the way. Those are part of the ride.
